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The meandering path of my life

Pondering

Hmmm…I am quite puzzled by my stats. I signed on to my blog today and checked the stats only to find out that my last post “Phil” had 23 hits! What’s up with that? Not that I’m complaining, just wonder what caused it. I mean…it’s a nice name but why would it cause so much interest? Oh well, another of life’s mysteries. It does feel a little strange knowing that people are reading what I write though. I thought the only one who read this was me…LOL.

Ok, on with the show.

Today was a busy day for me. My Mom has had a stiff neck the last couple of days and she had me take her to Urgent Care today. It was a long day of running around. Yesterday she had me taking her around as well, since she didn’t feel she could drive very well. I hope she doesn’t need to go anywhere tomorrow. I would like a day off for myself. I know, I’m a selfish little bitch…LOL.

::::Writing News::::

I’ve actually been working on my story again. I’ve been doing pretty good on my prologue. I made one…decided I had a better idea….and did an outline for another one. I’ve got about 1000 words of actual writing done for it. I think it’s going to be good. I hope to have it done by the time the next writing meeting rolls around. Just gotta get my ass in gear and do it.

And stop thinking about Phil!

Easier said than done…LOL.

Ciao for now.

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January 27, 2011 Posted by | Family, Life, Writing | , , | 2 Comments

Ho Hum

Well, here I sit, at Borders, thinking that the writing group meeting I was going to crash is a bum deal. I’m at the right store…but no writing group people. Oh well. It’s not like it’s a total waste. I’ve been doing some writing on my story and I’ve had a lovely peppermint mocha. So, the night isn’t too bad. It’s not like I was going to do anything around the house…like cleaning…LOL.

I may have to take a look at the bargain rack once more before I leave. I saw several books I would like to have. I can’t afford any of them…I shouldn’t buy any of them, but I’m not sure I’ll be able to resist. I love books! I already have so many that I don’t have space enough for them all, but books are so wonderful. I can’t get enough.

Well, back to my writing. I’ve messed around enough. Back to work.

Ciao for now.

December 28, 2010 Posted by | Life, Writing | , , | Leave a comment

Whassup

Well, I had a pretty good Christmas. The boys were with me on Christmas eve and with their Dad on Christmas day. I had Christmas dinner with my family at my Sister’s. I ate too much, as usual, and got some wonderful gifts…fuzzy socks, candles and a shirt. I’m glad it’s all over now…LOL.

I was supposed to have some company this evening, but unfortunately, New York is snowed in and Steve’s flight was cancelled. Sucks. If it hadn’t been cancelled, I sure wouldn’t be sitting here writing this…LOL. He’s going to try to change it to Tuesday. I’ll have to work Wednesday, but I guess a little visit is better than no visit. We’ll see what the weather allows.

I would like to announce that I have my pen pal, Phil, back. I’m so excited. I missed him. Things didn’t work out with his psycho girlfriend so now he can talk to whoever he wants…LOL. I’m glad we’re talking again. It’s not the same as it was before, but I think that’s probably a good thing. I was a bit “in awe” of him before. He’s so smart and nice and generous. Oh, and cute…can’t forget that. But now I see him as “human”. I feel more comfortable with that. I still think the world of him though. I hope we continue to get closer and remain friends forever…despite whatever psycho girlfriends he gets hooked up with…LOL.

On a personal note, I feel like I’ve been thrown back in the yahtzee cup and shaken around a bit. I’m still waiting to see where I get thrown and how the rest of the dice will fall. I hope that anyone who reads this takes a second or two to think a positive thought for me.

The writing has been going good. Not as well as I had hoped this last month, but still pretty good. I did not get the first draft done, but I don’t think it will be long into the new year before it’s finished. I had a wonderful breakthrough at lunch today. I now know what my prologue is going to be about. I wanted something to shock the reader and let them know just how bad my bad guy is. I think I have a way to do it. I’ve just written down the idea so far. I have to flesh it out a bit and then write it. It’s more than what I had yesterday though…LOL.

Well, I’m beat and I want to finish watching G.I. Joe before heading to bed. Yeah, I’ve seen it before, but I love the special effects. I have another video I could be watching, a little something my friend Rick (from work) made himself. Yeah, you guessed it..homemade porn…LOL. I’ve had the tape for a couple of days now and I still haven’t watched it.  I know…what’s wrong with me? LOL. Too tired, I guess. It’s been a hectic few days. I’m off tomorrow though, so I’m sure I’ll find time for it then. I hope it’s good.

Ciao for now.

December 26, 2010 Posted by | Family, Friends, Life, Writing | , , , | Leave a comment

Can’t sleep!

This is what I feel like

 

Sore throat. Can’t sleep. Guess I’ll write in my blog.

Hmm…what to write? Well, I guess I could tell you that I’m up to 50,000 words on my book now. That’s going well. I’m finding as I go along, lots of ideas that could make it better. I guess everyone does that though…LOL. I’ve decided that the first part is going to have to undergo some serious restructuring too. And I’m going to add a prologue. It’s going to be something really terrible. Something to introduce the bad guy in a way that will make you wish he were dead. No, I haven’t figured out what it’s going to be yet…LOL. It’ll come to me. It always does in the end.

Christmas is right around the corner. I have no money, as usual…LOL…so I’ve decided to use what I have available to me, a scanner/printer and lots of blank DVD’s. Oh, and  a little help from Smilebox. This year has not been that great financially and all my savings has been whittled away to nothing. Sucks. So, I decided to go through all the old pictures I have of my childhood, scan them into my computer and using Smilebox, make DVD’s for my family. I think they would all like it. Time is running out though. I have yet to scan a single picture.

Have you ever been so overwhelmed with things you need to do that you freeze and can’t get yourself to do anything? That’s me. I hate it. It’s something I have to struggle with all the time, since as a single mother, I seem to always have a million things to do. I shall endeavor to do better. Tomorrow’s another day, right?

And I think it’s time for me to try and go back to sleep. My ibuprofen seems to be kicking in so maybe I get a couple more hours before it’s time to get up again.

Ciao for now.

December 9, 2010 Posted by | Family, Life, Writing | , , , , | Leave a comment

Pen Pal

Yeah, I got another pen pal. From the U.K. again. I know, I’m such a wannabe. I just find them interesting. I am already familiar with people around here.

His name is Phil. He’s pretty cool too. I like him a lot. He’s smart and funny and generous. He’s already sent me a package of CD’s and DVD’s and has another package ready for me. The CD’s he sent were ones of his own music. They are pretty awesome. I can’t wait to hear more.

I know, I haven’t posted here in a while. I’ve been busy. Ok, I know, it’s a lame excuse. I guess I just haven’t really felt that it was all that necessary to my sanity. I’ve been feeling pretty good.

I joined a new writing group. I absolutely LOVE it. The people there are very nice. I’ve only been twice, but I’m going to keep going. They meet every Monday and that works out perfect for me. I don’t have the kids so I won’t worry about missing time with them. Tonight, I’m going to be submitting my revised first chapter. I’m nervous. On the one hand, I hope I get lots of feedback about what I can do to make my story better. On the other hand, I’m hoping that it’s so good that it doesn’t need any help. Ok, maybe I’m not as sane as I had hoped…LOL.

Something is going on with my car. It’s making a funny (ok, it really isn’t funny) noise. Sometimes it stops…but sometimes it’s really bad, like last night. I don’t know what it is but I think it has something to do with the steering or shocks. I’m taking it to Joe’s to see if he might know what it is. I don’t think he will, but maybe he can talk to James and he’ll know what’s wrong. I hope it’s nothing really bad. I’m poor.

Well, I don’t remember if I posted this yet or not…but I’m done with the complete outline of my story. Well, I say I’m done, but I’ve seen a couple of things that I need to go back and add. I’m still thinking about what it needs though. It won’t stop me from doing some writing though. What I’ve been doing lately is going back and revising some of the stuff I’ve already written. Chapter 1 and 2 were fairly easy. The end of chapter 3 is giving me some trouble though because there is a whole scene that is going to have to come out and be changed. It’s just to weird right now. I need something a little more subtle. I’m working on it.

Well, I guess that’s about all the news for now. Not much change happening around here. No, I haven’t met the man of my dreams or won the lottery…LOL. Trust me, you’ll know when that happens…LOL.

Ok, time to go and do other things. Just had to touch base in here again. I’m surprised by all the activity I’ve had for my blog while I have been ignoring it. I think it gets more hits when I’m not writing in it than when I do…LOL.

Ciao for now!

July 12, 2010 Posted by | Life, Writing | , , , , | Leave a comment

Writing Rant: The Lost Works of…

 

Have you ever lost some of your writing? Something you were working on…in a computer file, a notebook, a scrap of paper…and suddenly it was gone? Forever? If you’ve been writing for while, I’m sure your answer is an aggravated “YES”.

Don’t you just hate that? All that work…gone.

Well, as you might have already guessed, that happened to me a week or so ago. It was a notebook. The notebook I was taking with me to work every day and spending my lunch hour writing in. And let me tell you, things were going good. I was writing some awesome outline, figuring out plot points, character development, working my way to the brilliant ending, when it happened. I lost it. No, I have no idea where I left it. To tell the truth, I guess it could possibly be somewhere here in the house still. I haven’t checked under the bed or couches. It’s not a likely spot though.

Anyway, I was kinda bummed out…for a few minutes. Yep, surprised me too. I thought I would have been much more upset. I’m not though. I just got one of my other notebooks and started over. Oh, it’s not as detailed in places as the first one was, but the general idea is the same. Actually though, some ideas have been altered slightly. I find I like the alterations better than the original. It just helps to validate my belief that everything happens for a reason. Maybe losing that notebook was a good thing…?

So, with the way this has turned out, it makes me wonder…what sort of things might I come up with if I had to write other parts of the outline over? Hmmm. Maybe it’s a good thing to go back and re-write things without looking at your notes. Who knows what your subconcious might come up with at a different time?

I could compare it to hacking a trail through the jungle, looking for a destination. Your path might twist and turn all the way, and while you finally reach your destination, if you travelled that path again, you might find a better way to get there now that you know where you’re going.

Another analogy might be…watching a movie. Some movies, take Sixth Sense for example, are wonderful to watch the first time. But when you see it the second time, or third, you see things you didn’t see the first time. The complexity and meaning grows and astounds you.

I think losing my notebook was a blessing for me. It not only forced to me “try again”, it made me realize that maybe just because I come up with an idea to move my story forward, it doesn’t mean that has to be the way it happens. It’s just the idea that I came up with at that time. Maybe my subconcious will come up with a better idea later. I have to give it the chance though. That’s where going back over old (front of the book) material could benefit the story.

I’m really excited to have discovered this concept. I hope I remember it and put it to good use…without having to lose anything else…LOL.

April 4, 2010 Posted by | Weekly Rant, Writing | , , | Leave a comment

I feel Spring in the air!

Can you feel it? Can you smell it? Spring is coming! I am SO ready for it too. Yesterday was absolutely gorgeous. Of course, I had to work all day, but I managed to dig deep and find a little energy left inside me to go out an work on cleaning my little yard pond.

Yay me!

Let me tell you, it was no easy task. I’m still not done with it, but since today is not at all like yesterday (it’s windy, overcast and occasionally wet), I shall wait till tomorrow to finish cleaning it. It’s mostly done though. I wrestled the great, tentacled beast of a water lily out of it’s murky lair and set about breaking it into much more manageable pieces. The result: I now have more water lily plants than I know what to do with. I shall endeavor to pawn them off on friends and family. I hope someone takes them…I’d hate to see them just get thrown away. They have such lovely pink flowers.

Also…

I’ve been writing again!!! I know, shocker…LOL. It feels good though. It’s mainly just more outline stuff. I do believe I’m getting close to the end of the outline for what would have been book 2. I say “would have been” because I’m not so sure now that it’s going to be more than one book. I look back at the stuff I’ve written and see that there is a lot of it that will have to be cut out. As I learn more about writing, I see things that I’ve done wrong. I see ways to make my writing better. Hopefully, I’ll see it BEFORE I actually write a bunch of stuff that I don’t need instead of AFTER…LOL.

But it doesn’t really matter…because I’m WRITING again. I’m so excited! I have great ideas too. For example, I can’t wait to write about “crap turtles”. And I’m dying to write the “death scene”. I hope I make myself cry when I write it. It’s got to be heart-breaking. No, I”m not going to tell you who dies…LOL. You’re not going to like it though.

I still have a long way to go, even with just the outline, but I’m getting there and it’s so exciting. It’s probably a good thing it’s taking me so long, because I’ve come up with new, better ideas for some parts. I hope I can do this story justice with my writing. If so, it will be a fantastic tale for young and old alike.

I must be a writer…I’ve got a mountainous ego…LOL.

Ok, enough for now. Life and responsibilities intrude.

March 8, 2010 Posted by | Life, Writing | , , , | Leave a comment

A day full of possibilities

I have such wonderful plans for today! I am going to accomlish things today! I’ve already written 200 words on my book and I plan to write more later. Yeah, 200 words isn’t much, but compared to what I’ve been doing lately, it’s wonderful. I hope it spurs me on to getting back into my story again.

I’d also like to get some more wood cut today. Not sure if that’s going to happen though. We have rain in the forecast. It’s a little hard to cut wood in the rain. Not to mention, I could use a new chain for the chainsaw. Oh well, it’s not like I don’t have plenty to keep me busy in the house. This place is a mess. Every time I clean it, I tell myself I’m not going to let it get messy like this again. And what happens? It gets messy again…LOL. I just have too much stuff. I really need to get rid of some of it. Hopefully, today I’ll be able to do that. Maybe I’ll finish cleaning out Joseph’s closet and start working on mine.

Joseph has Robotics today. They are really working hard on the “building” stage of their project. He spent 7 hours up at the school yesterday working with his teammates. I don’t think they were working the whole time though, because someone brought lego’s up there and Joseph said he built something with them…LOL. He had a good time though and that’s what’s important. Don’t know how long he’s going to be up there today. I’m definitely going to enjoy my time alone though. I don’t get much of it anymore now that Joseph has decided not to go back to his Dad’s.

I’m going to spend my “alone” time writing. I want to see some results, feel like I’m getting somewhere, with my story. Wish me luck.

I know, I’m not going to get anywhere at all sitting here on my ass all day…LOL. And on that note….

Ciao!

February 7, 2010 Posted by | Family, Life, Writing | , , , , | Leave a comment

What a relief!

This morning I found some upsetting news when I went to my writing group’s meetup site. Four members quit! First, I should tell you that we only have 12 members. Then you should probably know that we had most of our meetings at the residence of 2 of those members.

I was in shock. I had no idea what happened. I found out though. Remember my post about rejection? Didn’t think so…LOL. Anyway, I talked about critiques and how they can be a bit hurtful. Well, that’s what happened.

Let me go back a little bit. The current writing group I am with got it’s start because of hurt feelings about critiques. The 2 ladies (mother and daughter) who started this group were upset about the critiques they received and decided to strike out on their own. Myself and another lady followed them as we were all close friends.

This time, the same thing. They got their feelings hurt by the critique of one of the other members (who, I might add, seems knowledgeable about writing). Only this time, the offending member felt the animosity and withdrew fromt he group. Two others followed. It looks like this group is doomed.

Thankfully, I am still in contact with the members that quit and there are plans to still get together and maybe create a forum for writing. I can stop panicking now…LOL.

In other news….

I’m off today (like you hadn’t noticed..lol). I have plans to do all sorts of wonderful cleaning and organizing things today. I “plan” to do them. We shall see how my plans go. They may have a better chance of being realized if I got off the computer…LOL. I’m getting there. I just had to get this off my chest. I won’t be spending my day sitting in front of the computer. Or the TV. Yeah, I know I don’t watch TV, but since Rob gave me the Doctor Who DVD’s I’ve been stuck in front of a screen, addicted. They’re all done now though. I watched the last 2 episodes last night. Maybe now I can concentrate on something constructive. Like housework.

I have felt better the last few days than I have in a long time. I think it’s because I’ve been making smoothies for breakfast lately. Whatever it is, I love feeling like doing something. I hate being lethargic and apathetic. So, since I’m feeling really good, I’m going to take advantage of it and get something done around here today. I’m all excited!

Turn on the music and let’s get this party started!

January 25, 2010 Posted by | Friends, Life, Writing | , , , , , | Leave a comment

It’s a good day

Today has been a good day. It’s not over yet though. Hmm, that sounds a little negative but I didn’t mean it that way. I just meant that I still have a few hours left to accomplish something. I haven’t really accomplished much…but it’s still been a good day. The weather was nice. I took a long nap. I did some laundry and dishes. I feel good. Maybe it’s the extra sleep. I wish I knew…I’d write it down and do it all the time. I still haven’t been able to figure out why sometimes I feel good and others I don’t.

I didn’t get any writing done today…I wanted to…but I just didn’t sit down and do it. It’s ok. I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I have done a little bit in the last few days. I decided to write a scene about my villian. I’ve finished sketching the outline of it. Just the outline is good. I hope I can do it justice when I actually write it out. It needs to be a powerful scene. I hope I can convey the horror and sadness of it all. We shall see.

I’ve been thinking about creating a blog for my writing group. I would love for us all to contribute, but I’m not sure everyone wants to. I will probably put it on the back burner for now and save it for another time. I just really think that it could be an awesome thing if everyone contributed something. We have such wonderful people in our group. It seems that we are all going through stressful times right now…some more than others. The blog can wait.

I’ve been thinking about doing a personal blog as well. Something anonymous. Something I can use for recording all my day to day BS. Yeah, if I really wanted it to be anonymous I’d just do a journal on my computer and not on the internet. I really like WordPress blogs though and it’s not that I don’t want anyone to read it…I just don’t want anyone to know it’s me…LOL. It would just be another one of thousands of other blogs that people write. I don’t care about strangers reading it…it’s the people I know that I’m not too keen on having them read it and know it’s me. I don’t think I’m in any danger of that though. I’ve posted the link to this blog on my Facebook and writing group sites and no one ever seems to visit…LOL.

Well, I guess I better get off here and take advantage of what’s left of the evening. My kitchen could definitely use a little (ok, a lot) more work. I still have laundry to fold and put away too. I’m not sure if I’m going to have to go get Joseph from his friends or if he’s going to spend the night. To tell the truth, I wouldn’t mind if he spent the night. It would save me another trip this evening.

Ciao!

January 22, 2010 Posted by | Family, Life, Writing | , , | Leave a comment