Loisanne's Blog

The meandering path of my life

It’s a wonderful life!

Yeah, I know, it’s the wrong time of year for that reference. It’s so true though. Life is freaking awesome.

I’m saying this because I have the most wonderful pen pal/friend in the world. No, that’s not the only reason…LOL…but it’s the one I feel compelled to talk about this evening.

Phil.

If you haven’t read the earlier post of the same name, then I shall tell you that Phil is amazing. Brilliant. Sweet. Funny. I could go on…and on.

Instead, I shall tell you a little bit about the gift I received from him yesterday. Small, inexpensive, home-made. And so sweet and special and thoughtful it brought tears to my eyes. He made a little fold-up card of sorts that had another little band of paper that slid over it to keep it closed. It’s gorgeous. Says…For Lois. You take the band off and open the card up and inside are beautiful butterflies on the paper. And in the middle, a little card attached by ribbon, with a lock of hair on it. The other side of the card has a beautiufl poem about his gift:

A little gift I hope will please

A lock of hair from overseas

It isn’t dyed, it’ isn’t grey

I hope it brightens up your day

Isn’t that beautiful? Such a special gift. He knows me pretty well…how sentimental I am. Just thinking about it has choked me up and brought tears to my eyes several times.

I took my gift to work today and showed it to my coworkers. They all thought it was awesome too. They asked me how I was going to top that. I have no idea….LOL. 

I have to admit to being a little confused as to the meaning of such a gift. We’re friends. Good friends. But does a gift like that mean more? I don’t know. I’ve been trying to figure it out. Trying not to project my own wishes and desires in the process. I still don’t know though.

Do I want to know?

I’ve asked myself that question too. Not knowing is kind of exciting. The feeling of anticipation is exhilirating. It’s a roller-coaster ride.  If I knew the answer, it would be one or the other. No possibilities. No “what if’s?”. I might get an answer I don’t like too….LOL. So, I’ve decided, not knowing isn’t such a bad thing. I don’t need to know right now anyway. I’m sure I’ll know, one way or another, somewhere down the line. It’s inevitable. But for right now, I’m enjoying every minute.

That’s what life is all about isn’t it? Sucking every bit of joy and happiness and wonder from every experience we have. And this experience is one of the best of my life. I don’t want it to end. So for now, I’ll just enjoy and leave well enough alone.

Ciao for now

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January 30, 2011 Posted by | Life | , , , | 1 Comment

Beautiful Day

It’s January 29th. In Oklahoma. It was 75 degrees today! I’m not sure, but it wouldn’t surprise me if that was some sort of record. Beautiful day today. I drove home with my windows down. I was surprised that hardly anyone else had theirs down.

What? Afraid to get your hair messed up?

I mean…how often do you get the chance…in January…to drive with the windows down and enjoy the fresh air and breeze blowing on your face? Poor slobs.

Oh well, on with the show.

Hmmm, seems the rest of the show has been cancelled due to lack of brain activity.

Better luck next time.

Ciao for now.

January 29, 2011 Posted by | Life | , | Leave a comment

Pondering

Hmmm…I am quite puzzled by my stats. I signed on to my blog today and checked the stats only to find out that my last post “Phil” had 23 hits! What’s up with that? Not that I’m complaining, just wonder what caused it. I mean…it’s a nice name but why would it cause so much interest? Oh well, another of life’s mysteries. It does feel a little strange knowing that people are reading what I write though. I thought the only one who read this was me…LOL.

Ok, on with the show.

Today was a busy day for me. My Mom has had a stiff neck the last couple of days and she had me take her to Urgent Care today. It was a long day of running around. Yesterday she had me taking her around as well, since she didn’t feel she could drive very well. I hope she doesn’t need to go anywhere tomorrow. I would like a day off for myself. I know, I’m a selfish little bitch…LOL.

::::Writing News::::

I’ve actually been working on my story again. I’ve been doing pretty good on my prologue. I made one…decided I had a better idea….and did an outline for another one. I’ve got about 1000 words of actual writing done for it. I think it’s going to be good. I hope to have it done by the time the next writing meeting rolls around. Just gotta get my ass in gear and do it.

And stop thinking about Phil!

Easier said than done…LOL.

Ciao for now.

January 27, 2011 Posted by | Family, Life, Writing | , , | 2 Comments

Phil

This is a post about my pen pal, Phil. Reader Beware! This could get graphic. Even I don’t know where I’m going with this one…LOL.

I think I may have posted something before about getting back in touch with my good friend Phil. The romance with his girlfriend Sam had run it’s course and I got my pen pal back.

Happy, happy, joy, joy!

Things are different now…but it’s actually better. Easier. Before, I was crazy about him and worried too much. Yeah, I’m still crazy about him, but I don’t worry so much about it now. I guess when he lost contact before, even though I missed him, I got over it and went on. Maybe that helps me keep a better perspective this time. I know if he runs away again, I’ll miss him and move on.

It’s worth the risk though. Trust me. He’s one of the most amazing men you will ever meet…even though, technically, I’ve never met him…LOL.

Why?

Ok, I’ll tell you about Phil. First, he’s good looking. My opinion. That has nothing to do with how amazing he is though. He’s so smart. He knows more about music than anyone I’ve ever met. And his intelligence doesn’t quit there. He’s interested in all sorts of subjects, science, philosophy, etc, and it’s a pleasure to talk to him about those things. He’s smarter than me. I love it. I don’t meet many people who teach me so much…turn me on to new things…make me look in new directions.

He’s talented too. He plays the guitar, sings, write’s music/poems, does graphic art. I have several CD’s of his own music and they are awesome.

He’s funny too. A wonderful sense of humor. A sarcastic wit and a practical joker. He’s caught me by surprise a few times and cracked me up.

He’s so giving too. And thoughtful. He’s made music CD’s for me…videos…bought me a book. Always something special to the individual person he’s giving to.

Yeah, I sound rather enamoured of him, don’t I? I am. It gets a little difficult to maintain perspective at times too. It would be so easy to let myself go and fall head over heels…but that’s not very realistic is it? I get caught up in the moment sometimes and let my imagination and emotions run away with me. I try not to wonder “what if?” too much. No sense in that. Logic usually prevails…LOL. Although sometimes it takes a while…LOL. I”m glad he puts up with me and my “crush”. I’m glad it doesn’t bother him. I know he doesn’t have any “romantic” feelings for me…although he does like me. I can handle that. He’s such a good friend.

Yeah, I’d love to shag him. You know it. The other night we were chatting and he did a little “cyber sex” thing for me….HOT. I thought I was going to have a heart attack…got me so worked up. I saved it. No, you can’t see it…LOL. Trust me, it was good. The things I would like to do to that man…sigh. A girl can dream, right?

I would love to meet Phil some day. I hope to do that. And no, not just to have sex…LOL. I doubt that would happen anyway. It would be so much fun just to hang out with him…talk to him. I hope to get the chance to do that some day. We shall see. ‘

Ciao for now

January 26, 2011 Posted by | Friends | , | Leave a comment

Thankfully, it’s over and done.

Well, my friend Steve finally came to visit. It wasn’t what I’d hoped it would be. I’m glad it’s over.

Don’t get me wrong, he’s a nice guy. Not really my type, but he’s nice. He wasn’t exactly like he’d advertised himself to be though…at least not in the “sexual” department. That part was a disaster. Not at all “as advertised”.

He wants to come back. I don’t think so. I’ll still be friends with him, but I don’t think I could go through another experience like that.

I think I’m not cut out for the whole “relationship” thing. I keep meeting totally unsuitable men. Maybe the Universe is trying to tell me something. I should just stop trying.

I really don’t have time for that anyway. I think maybe I should make another resolution for this year and not have anything to do with romance. Sounds like a good one.

Ciao for now

January 4, 2011 Posted by | Life | Leave a comment