Loisanne's Blog

The meandering path of my life

Finally, a finished outline!

I finally finished the outline of Book 1. Hooray!

 

I’ve been working on it for a long time and I’m now finished and pleased with the final product. I know what all book 1 will include and where it will end. Now I just need to get it typed up on the computer. I have 19 pages plus extra notes. I’ll probably add a little more detail as I’m typing it too. It’s going to be a big help. I’m so excited! I feel like I’ve accomplished something major. I guess, in a way, I have. I now have all the plot points of my story and just have to fill in the details. Isn’t it awesome?

 

I have the next 2 days off and I’m going to be spending as much of them as I can typing away on my outline. It’s so much easier to add and take away and write notes to a file on the computer than it is in a notebook. Don’t get me wrong though. I love having my notebook with me all the time. I love to jot down ideas when I get a chance. I’ve had some of my best epiphanies while on my lunch break at work.

 

I really think this is going to help me get writing on my story again. I already have 30,000 words written, chapters 1 – 9 and a piece near the end, but I’m pretty sure it will take over another 100,000 to get the job done. Who knows how long it will end up being by the time I’m finished.

 

Then there’s book 2…LOL. I already have some ideas about that one as well. I have a vague idea of where I want it to end. Same with book 3.

 

Yeah, there’s going to be 3 books!

 

It’s funny when I think back to the beginning of this project and how I just wanted to write a story for Jared with him as the main character. It has grown and evolved so much that it’s no longer just a short kids story but possibly a huge trilogy. I may even like writing about these kids so much that I want to continue on. It makes me wonder if J.K. Rowling’s idea about Harry Potter started out smaller than it ended up. Hmmm.

 

I would love to tell you all the details of my story, including the ones I have for the future books, but I know I can’t. I wouldn’t want to spoil the ending. Not to mention, there might be someone out there that thinks my ideas are good ones and that they can do a better job of writing the story. I wouldn’t want to tempt anyone…LOL.

 

Well, as much as I’d love to keep talking about me, me, me, I need to give it a break for now. I have a major catastrophe waiting for me in my kitchen. I put a big package of hamburger in the freezer last night and it must have shifted and fallen against the door, because this morning when I got up, there it was on the floor in a small puddle of water, the freezer door wide open, and everything in it thawed out. Yeah, it really bummed me out, but what can you do? Just clean it up and go on. I didn’t have time to do it this morning though, had to work, so now it’s time to take care of business.

 

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November 29, 2009 Posted by | Life, Writing | Leave a comment

Twas the day after Thanksgiving…

I had a very good Thanksgiving, despite having to work half the day. Of course, I was the last one to arrive, but everyone waited on me. That was sweet. I didn’t expect them to wait.

We had an awesome feast and I ate too much (doesn’t everyone?). We also had a lot of fun playing Guitar Hero 5. I mostly played the guitar, but I did sing one song. I didn’t play the drums.

I was going to write down all the posts I made on Facebook about all the things I am thankful for, but I just didn’t get around to it yesterday. It’s been a little difficult getting to the computer again this evening, but I have banished the children and shut the door in the hopes of getting a little time to myself.

I shall now attempt to share all my Facebook posts (hopefully before one of the kids interrupts me). It all started with a friend’s post…

“Every day this month until Thanksgiving think of one thing that you are thankful for and post it as your status. “Today I am thankful for…” The longer you do it the harder it gets! Now if you think you can do it then repost this message to invite others to take the challenge, then post what you a…re thankful for today. I think this is a great idea! makes you appreciate more and a good reminder!”

I saw this post and thought it sounded like a great idea. I decided to give it a shot. I really do have a lot to be thankful for. Here goes…

1. Today I am thankful for my wonderful Mom, who is the one person I can always depend on. I love her lots.

2. I am thankful…that Joe got the brakes fixed on my car and I have wheels again!

3. Since yesterday’s “thankful for” didn’t last long, I’ll replace it with a different one. I’m thankful for my computer. It keeps me in touch with people better than I would on my own. And today…I’m thankful for my big, king-size, pillow-top, comfy bed. It loves me as much as I love it. Parting is such sweet sorrow. It… gives me sweet lovin’ every night. Waaaayyy better than any man I’ve ever known…LOL.

4. AHHHH! I almost forgot to tell what I’m thankful for today. I am thankful for having time to myself. I miss my kids when they go to their Daddy’s but I really enjoy my time alone and it makes me so happy to see the boys when they get back.

5. Today I am thankful for days off! WooHoo!!!!!!!

6. Today I am thankful for…getting to have lunch with my best friend Deb and then going to Pier 1. I love you, Deb and I’m thankful that I met you.

7. Today I’m thankful for….heat. It’s freaking cold out there!

8. Today I am thankful for…my children. Ok, so I’m thankful for them every day (some more than others). They are pretty awesome people. I love them very much.

9. Today I am thankful for….my senses. I’m so thankful to be able to listen to beautiful music, see the beauty of the countryside, smell a man’s cologne, taste a turkey dinner and hug my children’s soft, warm bodies.

10. Today I am thankful for…imagination, mine as well as others. Without it there would be no creativity.

11. Today I am thankful for…being a woman. No offense guys, but I wouldn’t want to be a “man” for anything…LOL.

12. Today I am thankful for…my job. Yeah, I know that sounds a little strange…LOL…but I actually like what I do. I also like having money to pay my house payment, bills and buy groceries. I know, I don’t look like I’m so poor I’m starving…LOL

13. Today I am thankful for…being me. I may not care for my physical imperfections (who does?), but I am very comfortable with who I am on the inside.

14. Today I am thankful for….Men. They can sure be pleasing to the eye. Unfortunately, that’s about all their good for….just kidding boys….maybe.

15. Today I am thankful for…being alive in such a wonderful time as this. All the technology and comfort we have now is so awesome. We don’t use it as wisely as we should and we take it for granted.

And that’s as far as I got. It’s not too shabby a list. They are all very important things to me. I could have kept going. There are so many things to be thankful for. I am a very lucky person. Probably luckier than I realize. It’s all a matter of persepective though…right? I just try to maintain an attitude of gratitude. It doesn’t always work…I’m human…but I try.

I hope everyone else had a wonderful Thanksgiving too. Now it’s time to think about Christmas! It’s the most wonderful time of the year!

Where’s my Christmas decorations?

November 27, 2009 Posted by | Family, Life | Leave a comment

Gobble, gobble

I'm gonna eat so much my butts gonna crack!

 

Tomorrow is the day! Happy Thanksgiving!  I hope everyone has a good one.

 

I have to work. Not the whole day, thank goodness, but I still have to go in at least half a day. I guess it gives me a good excuse not to have to cook a lot…LOL.

 

Dinner is going to be at my sister’s. Jared is going to make green bean casserole and I’m making stuffed mushrooms. Not much, but everyone else is bringing all the rest and I couldn’t think of anything new and imaginative to make.

 

It will be nice to see all my family together. Joseph will be the only one missing. He didn’t want to spend Thanksgiving with my family. Him and his Dad are going to Golden Corral. I hope they have a good time.

 

Well, I’m really tired now and having a hard time staying awake. If none of this makes sense, it’s because I’m not thinking coherently. I shall try again tomorrow.

 

I’ve been posting on Facebook “things I am thankful for”. I think I’ll compile them all and post them in here tomorrow.

 

Night all

November 25, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Another day

Kiss my...well, you know what I'm talking about.

 

Today has been a rough day. My legs and feet are still hurting.

 

You wouldn’t be in such good shape if I was standing on you all day either, you know.

 

I shall be gloriously relieved when Thanksgiving is over. I can reset the counter and start all over, the excitement and frenzy building to a crescendo until I am once again at this point and ready for Christmas to be over. Holidays are a bitch when you work in retail. Tomorrow I will go to work and it will seem like everyone withing a 50 mile radius will visit the store…at least once. It will be chaos. It will be hell on earth. The apocalypse will pale in comparison.

 

Makes me glad I work behind a plexi-glass wall. If only I had some mini-blinds. Call me crazy, but I don’t like being in a swarm of old ladies who wear cologne so heavy it makes me gag or men that reek of body odor that get sent to the store by their wives to pick up last minute items. Ok, not every customer is an olfactory assailant but trust me…there are a lot. Then you have the people that obviously don’t own a mirror. How do I know this, you ask? Because if they had one, they would never be in public wearing the clothes they wear…or not wearing the clothes they should be…LOL.

 

To make matters worse, you throw all these people together in a grocery store, give them metal shopping carts that are the equivalent of bumper cars and, throw in for good measure, not enough of something to go around. You end up with irrate customers asking an irrate me where something is at. Since I’m usually busy decorating a cake and usually haven’t got a clue what they’re asking about, an irrate me (cleverly hid behind a smiling facade) asks an irrate co-worker to help the irrate customer. Fun!

 

Wait! That’s not all folks! There’s more!

 

Come break time, I get to navigate through the sea of shopping carts to the break area. If I make good time, I may actually get to sit down and relax for a minute or two before having to navigate my way back.

 

Heaven forbid should the need to buy anything arise tomorrow.

 

And don’t get me started on the parking lot! It almost makes me glad that I don’t have a car right now. Almost.

 

Whew! Deep breath! It will all be ok. Tomorrow will come and go and at the end of the day I shall be standing triumphantly outside the door wishing I had a little mistletoe over my ass…LOL.

November 24, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Weekly Rant – Character Questionnaire

Have you ever had a hard time making a character real? Maybe you’re having difficulty in creating depth to characters? I know the feeling. In the story I’m currently writing, I use my children as the main characters. Ok, they are not exact copies of mychildren, but I use a lot of their characteristics. It’s pretty much a no-brainer. When it came to the villian though, I was having a hard time defining him. I did not want him to be evil incarnate. I wanted him to seem likeable at first glance and only when being opposed and under stress would he show his unstable, evil qualities. I was really having a hard time getting to know him.

It was time to start asking him some questions.

From what little I knew about my character, I had a good idea of what I wanted him to look like. Matthew McConaughey. I wanted him to be beautiful and charming on the outside. I needed to know more about the inside though.

So, what questions to ask?

The writing group I’m a part of had a discussion about it and we all came up with some ideas. I will list them below. I think we did a good job of it but I’m sure there are lots of questions we missed. This is a good start though.

1. What is your favorite color?
2. What sort of music do you listen to? Favorite song?
3. Are you religious? What religion?
4. What are your political views, if any?
5. What is your favorite food?
6. What is your favorite beverage?
7. What is your favorite dessert?
8. Do you have any phobias/fears?
9. Do you have any siblings?
10. Are your parents alive?
11. Were you raised by your parents? Both, just one, niether?
12. What is your most embarassing moment?
13. What is your favorite childhood memory?
14. Do you have a pet? What kind?
15. Do you have a best friend?
16. Gay, straight, bi, celibate?
17. What sort of education do you have?
18. What sort of work do you do? Past jobs?
19. Are you social or do you prefer to be alone?
20. Are you quick -tempered or calm natured?
21. Are you confidant or insecure?
22. Do you have any bad habits?
23. Do you have any physical flaws?
24. What are your life goals?
25. Do you have any hobbies?
26. Do you have any pet-peeves?
27. Do you frequently remember your dreams? Are they good or bad?
28. What is your astrilogical sign?
29. What is one thing you would give your life for?
30. Have you ever been in love?
31. Do you have any children?
32. What is your greatest weakness? Strength?
33. Have you ever done something you regret? Explain.
34. Have you ever hurt someone just for fun?
35. Do you have a sense of humor?
36. Do you follow fashion trends?
37. Have you ever killed someone? Explain.
38. Would you define yourself and a hero or villian? (remember this is your characters definition of himself)
39. What is one thing that you’ve always wanted to do?
40. Do you believe in destiny?

I think these questions cover the basics. Of course, not every character will need to answer every question and some characters will require you to come up with new, off the wall questions.

I have not put my main characters through this questionnaire since I know them so well, but even so, while composing this list, it reminded me that my youngest son loves coffee. He drinks it every morning. He drinks it hot, cold or in a frozen smoothie. He’s crazy about coffee. He’s 11. It’s a bit unusual for someone so young to like coffee so much. At least, I think so. Point is, it’s something about him that I am going to use in my story. It’s something that will define him better…set him aside from the other characters.

It makes me wonder if there is anything I’ve missed about my other son. I may have to run them both through the list and see what I come up with. Fortunately for me, they are real people and I can have them answer instead of myself doing it for them.

That gives me an interesting thought. What about asking people I know to fill out this questionnaire? Some of the answers I get could be things I would never think of. It might be so intriguing that I would want to create a character after them. What an awesome idea! I think I’ll do that.

Anyway, I hope this helps someone in some way. I just thought the idea of a character questionnaire was such a good idea that I wanted to share it with the world. I’ve learned so much from others that I want to give something back.

November 23, 2009 Posted by | Weekly Rant | 1 Comment

Progress

I made a little progress (very little) on my story outline today. I sat there during lunch, reading over the stuff I’d already written and it goosed my muse into picking up where I left off. I got half a page written and some very interesting ideas to add in detail. I’m all excited again.

 

I feel really good today too, despite my legs and feet hurting from standing on them all day. I feel like doing something. Unfortunately, at the moment, it’s not writing…LOL. I actually feel like cleaning out my fridge! Yeah, sounds pretty crazy to me too. I finished out my day at work with some cleaning and organizing though and now I want to do it at home. I really should take advantage of it. This doesn’t happen often…LOL.

 

I’m off tomorrow and I’ll be posting another “Rant”. This time it’s on character development. I’m really excited about this post. It’s gonna be great and I hope it helps anyone  who is having trouble fleshing out their characters.

 

Anyone who actually reads this…LOL. You might be the only one, Rob…LOL.

 

 

November 22, 2009 Posted by | Life, Work, Writing | 2 Comments

What if…..?

The Universe is a Koosh ball

 

What if?
I read a lot. I like thrillers, suspense, sci-fi, fantasy and books about religion, science and philosopy. The latter 3 have been of the most interest to me recently. I’ve enjoyed books on Buddhism and eastern mysticism very much as well as a few books that combine the 3 ideals, as strange as that sounds.

I’m trying to understand the Universe I am a part of. Yeah, I know that’s like a bacteria in my bowels trying to understand world politics, but I have to try. It gives purpose to my existance. When you think you have it all figured out, you stop learning. I hope to be a seeker of truth as long as I live.

One of the most influential books I’ve read is “The Seven Mysteries of Life” by Guy Murchie. It’s an older book, but full of wonderful information about the microverse all the way to the macroverse and how everything is connected. It’s a philosophical way of looking at science. That’s not the only book I’ve found that does that though. “The Tao of Physics”  takes a look at how science and eastern mysticism have a lot in common. Both are enlightening reads.

So what are my thoughts on the Universe?

Well, it’s like trying to figure out an equation with too many unkown variables. I don’t know anything for sure. I do have my theories though. The one I like best is…

What if the Universe is a giant Koosh ball?

Wait, hear me out, I can explain…LOL.

First, I don’t believe in an actual diety. I could be totally wrong on this point, but if there was, why is he so secretive? If he’s so powerful, why not show us? It doesn’t seem logical to me. But, when has religion ever been logical? I do believe there is a “conciousness” of some sort at work though. I believe that it is a combination of every piece of the Universe, all wrapped up in one big “koosh ball” of conciousness and we are merely physical offshoots that return to the collective when we’ve experienced all we need to to fulfill our purpose. I believe our sub-concious is our connection to that collective and gives us inspiration and knowledge if we ask and listen.

Sounds crazy huh?

Well, that seems like the most logical explanation to me…at the moment. I’m not dead yet though and I haven’t closed the possibilities to other ideas. I’m still seeking. But for now, this works for me…very well.

November 20, 2009 Posted by | Life | Leave a comment

Frustration

When all else fails.....

Do you ever feel like there are so many demands on your time and energy that there’s nothing left for you? That your life is so full that there’s hardly even time to think?

I know, we all feel like that from time to time.

I’m one of those people that need a lot of “space” though. I like being alone. I like living in my head and having time to think. I’m a dreamer. I like to wonder about the Universe. Yeah, some of the questions I pose myself are pretty silly, like “what if, on the cosmic scale of the Universe, we’re only some inconsequential little piece, like say…yeast…and we’ve grown and multiplied until we’re a festering, itchy, oozing infection on the crotch of our galaxy? That would knock our arrogant asses down a peg or two.

What I’m saying though, is…I need time to think those thoughts. I need space. I need more than the average person, I think. And even though I’m complaining about not getting enough, I probably get more than the average person. I only have my kids half the time. My day off are, more often than not, on the days when my kids are at their Father’s.  That’s 2 whole days of theoretical “space”. Of course, I don’t always get that but even so, I really can’t complain.

So, why am I complaining?

Because things have been so hectic around her lately that I haven’t had the chance to think. Not even about my writing. I need to vent.

And now that I have…I feel much better.

I’m off today, the kids are at school, and I’m alone…ahhhh.

November 20, 2009 Posted by | Life, Uncategorized | Leave a comment

I think, therefore I change

Today, at work, I was thinking about a blog post I read of The Wise Sloth about why the the world won’t change. It was very true and more than a little dismal.

 

It’s because of us. We can’t, or won’t even try to change. My eyes opened for a moment today and I saw all my coworkers, flawed and imperfect, and how this one lies about others to ingratiate himself to the boss and how the boss does petty things to the ones who are being lied about and how the ones suffering the boss’s contempt get upset and tell the whole workplace about the injustice.

 

On and on it goes, back and forth. Like bullets ricocheting, never losing their momentum, going from person to person. We hurt people, lie, cheat, steal. We don’t think about helping others, we only think about ourselves. It really made me sad when I realized how we, as humans, are. I felt it in my chest, a terrible hopelessness. Here we are, a world full of selfish, greedy, thoughtless, thankless people who have a plethora of religions that don’t seem to help one bit to fix any of those problems. In fact, religion seems to exacerbate the problems since more people have died from differences in religion than anything else I can think of. It breeds conflict. It gives license to hate, kill, and be prejudiced.

 

Enough about that though. I can do nothing to change other people, only myself, which I try to do continuously. Today I feel like I’ve had a breakthrough. They say the first step in solving a problem is realizing there is a problem. So…

 

Hello. My name is Lois…..and I’m human.

 

I shall do my best to rise above all my greed and hate and prejudice though and maybe there will be a few less bullets to ricochet out into the world.

November 18, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

I feel like….

Why do we say "I feel like crap" like it's a bad thing? Warm and soft and squishy is a bad thing?

 Ok, so I feel like crap smells….bad. It’s been a rough day. Work took it’s toll on me. Life took it’s toll on me today.

 

One good thing today…my kids came back. They’ve been awesome this evening. I love them lots. They have both been very affectionate…even Joseph. Although his affection consisted of flopping on me and licking me. I got in a lick myself though…LOL…much to his dismay.

No writing again today. Where has my muse gone? It must be sleeping. Wish I was. I slept terrible last night. I remember dreaming strange dreams too, but can’t recall any details. Probably just as well. I’d be wondering “what does it mean?”.

 

Well, sounds like Jared is home from basketball practice. Looks like my “me” time is up for the evening.

 

I shall petition the great and powerful Koosh for a better day tomorrow.

 

November 17, 2009 Posted by | Life, Work, Writing | Leave a comment